Thursday, March 15, 2012

Birthday Blues

cake 26 candles

I’ve been feeling weary of my impending 26th birthday. I feel so close to a number, but so far away from any expectations I had for my life at this point. 

I’ll be 26. (26!)

I sometimes eat doughnuts for breakfast and have long considered Coco Pops as a viable dinner option.  I get cranky if I haven’t had enough sleep.  I carry vodka in my handbag on nights out.  The thoughts of settling down somewhere (even that expression- eeeeeeeww!) gives me heart palpitations.  I bite my nails and forget to take my vitamins and don’t pay my bills on time.  I drink too much and wonder why I feel bad in the morning.  I stamp my foot when I don’t get my own way. I steal pens and shot glasses from almost anywhere I can find them.  I don’t know what a tracker mortgage is.   When someone (my own age) tells me they’re pregnant, my instinctive reaction is to give them my ‘Oh my God, have you told your parents? look, rather than to congratulate them.   I don’t know how to act at funerals. 

I have no real commitments in my uncomplicated life, but sometimes I still struggle to get my two shoes on the right feet and get out the door on time in the mornings.

I don’t have any of the answers… (help!)

17 comments:

fluff and fripperies said...

This should make you feel better. I felt similarly on the advent on my recent birthday...when I turned 34! THIRTY FOUR!

And also - you carry vodka in your handbag on nights out?!

little t said...

Yes Emma, I do. Not proud. Just real.

Ashley said...

Expectations are a dangerous game. I see that you're living in a cool country, and I see a brave, capable lady blazing her own path in life. What we find is that there is no real path to follow, just brainwashing that we can either succumb to or opt out of. You're living life exactly the way you should :)

I'm 27 and heck if I "setttle down" anytime soon!!

Ashley said...

oh, and happy birthday :)

The Dainty Dolls House said...

Happy Birthday wishes to you doll!! I am older than you, so no worries! You will get there, I know a panic can set in, but all it is, is a number!! Have a fabulous time!! XXX

Style Servings said...

Aw, I feel you are totally justified in doing all these things! I don't think I'll ever outgrow Frosties.. As long as it works for you, who is anyone else to say you are to old to behave like that!? I've always loved the line in the song Perfect Day that goes "They tell me to act my age, Well I am."

Happy birthday!

Style, She Wrote said...

Don't think about how you are supposed to behave; just be how you feel -- regardless of the number of candles on your birthday cake! xo style, she wrote

oomph. said...

i'm much older than you and still don't have all of the answers!! you still have lots of time to figure things out! enjoy your birthday!

[oomph.]

Diana Mieczan said...

I think that the beauty of it all is that you dont need all the answers as long as you are happy! That is the one thing that truly matters:) Happy Birthday, sunshine. Have a wonderful day. xo

Anonymous said...

Your birthday its today right? Happy Birthday, love your blog, keep writing xox

k come karolina said...

happy bday!




xoxo from rome
K.
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Anonymous said...

LOL Happy Birthday xxx

little t said...

Thank you all, it wasn't so bad!

Ballet Pumps And Roses said...

I'm not telling you my age now but lets just say I wish I was having your birthday instead of mine.

Relax and enjoy young lady

Joanne

http://www.balletpumpsandroses.com

Meghan @ Wishful Thinking said...

LOL! I'm turning 26 this year too (thank goodness I was sitting down because that just dawned on me now) and I know exactly how you feel. I have no idea what a tracker mortgage is either or an ISA or APR for that matter. I've never known whether I am on the right tax code, I'm always late for everything and I too have been known to carry the odd drink or 2 in my bag. So you're not alone! We'll figure it out someday!?

em.me.ma said...

must say i have tequila in my purse sometimessss haha! 26 is the new 16 now right?

dont stress it. we all grow at our on speeddont let a number determine how you should be

NOVAGIRL said...

Happy Birthday! Ive heard your 30s are for settling down...you still have plenty of time to goof off :)